Lava
Friday 10 th March 2017
Lava restrained so far
lava kept in so that I would not
hurt.
Patience, effort, agony
to resist the equilibrium it seeks.
No. I cannot let it happen.
Don’t let it pour
keep it in
don’t destroy the
surroundings that keep you
in sync
Don’t destroy the nature that
builds your very being
that you love with all your
heart
Never hurt
abide by the wishes of the
weather
the earth
of the people
whose homes stand above your existence.
For,
my existence
should make me feel ashamed
I do not deserve to
live for
the lives I have destroyed
despite trying so hard to
save what I
so desperately cared for.
No.
every now and then the lava leaks out
and I cannot control it
and the more I keep it in the more destruction it wreaks when it
brutally explodes.
a rushing cataclysm of glowing magma.
And so, for the destruction it will cause
I cannot restrain it.
Instead I plunge, pull myself down into a world of
inevitable despair
fighting to accept that the harm I have caused
cannot be worse than what it would be
had I kept it in much longer.
fighting
praying
that the harm is reversible
that I can regain balance with the weather
the earth
and the people whose homes stand above my existence.
To them
just a force of evil
of hatred
impossible of love or kindness
Not realising the lava are the volcano’s
tears of despair and anguish
while I keep a strong front for sake of my sanity
while I resist the urge to
destroy myself into pieces of
merciless self-blame
on the brink of depression
where I am pulled up by the fire
that makes my existence
because I am not alone.
Only move on.
Perpetual fear-
I refuse to-
mind racing
stop
I beg.
you.
Volcanoes can only be inactive for so long.
Please hold on.
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